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My daughter turned 13 a few weeks ago (ugh).  The cliche is true; time passes way too fast.

As I’ve watched her grow through adolescence, the tweens and now entering her teens, I amazed at the person she is becoming.  When she was first born, I used to marvel at her wide eyes that seemed to be searching for meaning in everything they saw.  Her beautiful brown eyes would search mine as if looking through the windows to understand who I was and what I would bring to her life.

As she grew older, there were marked changes where one day I would just look at her and realize that she was different from yesterday.  Her expressions would be different; her grasp of understanding would be evolved; her laughter at a joke or herself would be deeper; something would be more evolved and I would look at her and realize that she was moving on from the previous stage and I would no longer experience that part of her.

At first, changes came relatively fast; after a month; after three months; after six; after a year. The older she got, the more time there was between marked changes.  Sometimes I would see something “so me” in a change.  Other times I would see something “so my wife”.  And yet others, I would see things “so uniquely her”; so beautifully her …

She’s now a teenager (which really doesn’t seem at all possible) and there are so many things going on in her life that we’re no longer a part of and that makes me sad.  She’s growing and learning and becoming herself and having to deal with life in middle school and the decisions she makes and the friends she keeps and … and she doesn’t want us there to help her make all those decisions (notice I still refuse to say need us there :D).

And so this song shuffled in this morning and made me think about how much I love her and want to experience her today (as much as you can a teenager).   I want to live every second that I spend with this beautiful creation and experience her as she continues to grow into her being.  Of course I do miss the past; I do look forward to seeing her future but the “right nows” are what are the most things to experience while I’m in them with her.

So, here’s one that got me thinking about my beautiful angel that makes me a better man because everything in my life has lead up to her at this point … and I wouldn’t change a thing, except, maybe, to slow time down a litte.

Why are you growin’ up so fast
My boy?
Oh, you’d better take your time.
Why are you growin’ up so fast
My son?

Almost time to live your dream
My boy.
Oh, you’d better take your time.
Almost time to make some plans
My son.

Vacation gone, school is out,
Summer ends year in year out.

Oh, you’d better take your time
My boy.
I thought we had just begun.
Why are you growin’ up so fast
My son?

Vacation gone, school is out,
Summer ends year in year out.

Why are you growin’ up so fast
My boy?

Why are you growin’ up so fast
My son?

My Boy – Neil Young

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